Uncertainty.

That's what's up.

A whole lot of it.

But I am comforted in the knowledge that the suck I must endure for now will lead to better things.

"To those humans in whom I have faith; I wish suffering, being forsaken, sickness, maltreatment, and humiliation. I wish that they should not remain unfamiliar with profound self-contempt, the torture of self-mistrust, and the misery of the vanquished. I have no pity for them because I wish them the only thing that can prove today whether one is worthy of anything or not: that one endures."  -from Richard Linklater's film "Slacker"